Catch-up.

So i havent blogged in a while, and this is actually cause i have SOOO much assignments and all that to do, that i actually just forget and cant be bothered in a while. But hey, look, i found time now, so this is pretty much what i've been up to for the past few weeks or so.

Well, tbh, i havent been the best for the past few weeks, stuff happens and i think we get the idea that it isnt good haha. Well, mainly cause i know that alot of people; especially my "supposedly close friends" are judging me over things that they dont have the full story of. In general, i have been treated quite shitly from some people and idk, i dont really care? But at the same time i do, like... it sucks that people instantly believe others without confronting me first. They think that others are going through a tough time; much worse than what i am going through, but trust me, if you atleast bother to try and see how im getting through things, you'll see that maybe things are just a little bit different.

I've been stuck on who is actually my best friend or even, a true friend for the past few weeks. Much of them seem to just bitch on me when they have the chance, (i must be such a fun topic huh? HAHAH) without realizing the wrongs that they also commit to as well. Tbh, i dont mind people talking about me, as long as they confront me about it to me afterwards, i mean, are you too scared, as my friend, to tell me what you dont like about me? How can we even call each other friends if you are petrified of seeing me. I mean, you guys say i cant accept your flaws and i should learn to deal with it, but bro, if you cant accept mine; my temper, my dull face when im tired, then bro, why should i accept yours? Actions show alot more than words, you're getting attitude from me? Tbh, you should think of what you did first, i dont normally give people attitude first unless they did shit to me first. So actually think from my perspective you douche heads.

Stop judging me if your own morals are to not judge. Know the full story before you come to conclusions. And frankly, if this is your way of trying to fix things; such as being cunts to me, ignoring me, giving me attitude, not telling me anything at all, bitching about me, then uhmm, dont expect much from me.

Sorry, i just realized i had a huge rant, but holy. It really gets to me, since im such a "bad influence" and i seem to just kill everyone huh?
"Christians" they call themselves huh?

birthday.

sup guys, and as some of you guys may have known, my bday just passed recently (background cheer)

AND, as a result, i was gonna aim for some goals this year, after my bday, hopefully LOL.

FIRST OF ALL :)
Forget all the shit that people have ever done to me, this may be being a rude cunt, a dick, whatever LOL. Forgiven :D cause thats what God wants us to do.

2ndly, aim to be a happier person and stop snobbing people :)
3rdly; talk to more juniors lol. why am i so anti-social. some of them are actually pretty cool people.

4th, be a better role model; improving myself as a whole.

ANYWAYS :) AND HERES A SUMMARY OF MY BDAY :D

I loved it :)

I think it was honestly one of the most best-est bdays i've had haha. Although there could have been many improvements, overall i think it was good ! Didnt get sleep for the whole weekend, and ended up with only around 12 hours to set up the whole thing with food etc. SO! it went well, kinda HAHA.

Got like, good presents and i loved them all haha; got tops, dress-shirts, condoms, food, AND an IPHONE 5. (EVERYONE JUST SCREAM YAY)

Honestly, did not even expect that at all. kinda came at me, like  9/11 ; it was unexpected(but thats not racist) and ! have to say thank you to all my mates that came and got me all this honestly. Made me feel shit loads good about myself haha; kinda like, putting all the effort to make this for everyone to get a good time, and to just feel good that talking and listening to people can actually mean stuff for some people :)

LOL

LOL, those stupid people on fb that just like everything; hoping that they would get more likes in return when they dont even know them properly, and deep inside. the person's stuff they like, yeah, well they probably dont even like you lol.

shitfaces.

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there is a huge difference between genuinely liking someone and liking the attention they give you and it took me a long ass time to realize that

5 Things to be thankful for

1) Your fam-bam; they raised you up, and pretty much brought you up and made you who you are!
2) Your friends; they listened to all the stuff you had to say and made you smile through the hardships
3) Your teachers; hard to say, but they taught you all the shit that you had to learn hahaha.
4) Yourself; you run your life, if you make it good, it'll be good :)
5) God; For remembering to wake you up today and making all these wonderful things happen in your life. AWWWW CHEEEEESSSY.

Rant: Relationships

Just an opinion:

Sometimes I think that relationships are just things that people want , in order to brag to other people... Of course there is also the reason of wanting to be and feel loved, but how blind are we?

Are we not loved by the people around us and by God? I mean of course we are allowed to have them.. But don't let them drive your life's. don't change because of them unless its for the better. Don't cut out everyone from your life for that one person, cause that's fucking stupid.

Yes I don't have the right to judge, as I have never been in a proper fully committed relationship. But I think I have seen enough and been in enough to know what is right and what is wrong.

So learn to accept your mistakes and learn from them. You aren't always right and accept other people's opinions.

Hard to say we are still friends when you have turned into a selfish fucker.

Food for Thought

"The tiger may feel sorry for the deer he kills, but should the deer then feel sorry the tiger starved to death?" Quoted from someone on my fb! HAHA